Life Coming Together

Hi. If I were to say to you now that I had some form of a plan for this post, I would be lying to you. I wish I did, alas, I don’t. Unlike usual though, I actually have semi-interesting things to talk about and update the internet on, so my assigned FBI agent can get the full low-down on my life, it’s just getting those things into cohesive sentences that I’m struggling with today. Thats the problem with writing – your best creations happen when you try the least (well, thats what I find anyway).

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The Autumn Edit

I’m about to do something I’ve never properly done before: I’m going to talk about style. I am the last person on earth anybody would call “stylish” (you only have to look at what I pick up in charity shops to see what I mean) and even though I’ve worked in retail for 2 years, I’m as far away from fashionable as you could possibly get. I do however very much enjoy autumn clothing, so I thought I’d club together a few of my go-to pieces that I gravitate towards during this time of year and chat about them (please go easy on me, I’m very nervous about uploading this post).

Pumpkin Picking on a Windy Day

Hello my glorious autumn pixies, I’ve rewritten the intro to this post an embarrassing amount of times and I’m really not sure why I’m struggling with it so much (clearly I’m going insane, there’s no other explanation). Last weekend was my first weekend off work in a long time, so naturally full advantage was taken and we went pumpkin picking – and it would’ve been diabolical if I didn’t take my camera along with me. I love this time of year, I’m not sure if I’ve mentioned that very much (my “Love Letter to Autumn” post does a little wave in the background) but I really do and looking through photos like these fills me with pure joy and comfort, so I hope they do the same for you.

Anxiety and Sleep Paralysis

Hi hello spooky internet folk, today I’m talking about sleep paralysis. If you were to do a quick google search for sleep paralysis right now you’ll find a definition, a couple of medical pages and a wikipedia page followed by countless web articles with names like: “awake in a nightmare“, “the nightmare of sleep paralysis“, “sleep paralysis: the demon in my bedroom” and of course an article written by Buzzfeed called “13 facts about sleep paralysis that will keep you up at night!“. This post is none of the above, it is however my own account/rantings of living with sleep paralysis turned into a post that nobody really expected or asked for (can I get a woop woop?!).

Songs to Cure a Bad Mood – my Current Playlist

Hi my little autumn pumpkins, welcome to October. I’m skipping out on a recap this month as September was mostly filled with overthinking, too many emotions, sometimes no emotions and many many goodbyes – so I thought I’d save you the torture of reading that (though technically you don’t have to read anything I write, I’m not forcing you). Instead of a recap I thought I’d give you a little insight into what I’ve been listening to virtually on repeat recently, i.e every time I’ve needed an emotional pickup.

A love letter to autumn

All over the place doesn’t even begin to illustrate how I’ve been feeling these past couple of weeks. Ooooh b*tch, the mental health game is playing a hard one right now. I’m trying to steer as far away as I can from a depressive pity party though, because A) I’ve had enough of them B) nobody will benefit from it and C) in the long run it’ll only make matters worse. Instead I am focussing my brain on all the positive goings on in my life right now: like autumn. Oh yes thats right, my favourite time of the year has arrived. September 23rd rolled around (the first official day of autumn) and there was a crispness in the air, leaves appeared more golden overnight, cosy jumpers, scarves and coats called to me as I got ready for work and I emerged from my dwelling a brand new, shining, autumn goddess.

Thoughts from a cafe: feeling like an adult

A few weeks ago my cousin and auntie (not blood related) came up to stay for a few days. On the first day, after my cousin and me had finished a ghost tour and were walking back to the car, we were reflecting on how long it had been since we had last seen each other. As we were talking and semi-reminiscing (a term I use loosely because there isn’t much to reminisce on) she paused and asked me how old I was, “I’m 20” I replied, she looked at me in a kind of shock and said “Woah, its been ages, you’re like… an adult now“. At the time I brushed this statement away with the kind of jokey laughter you do when you’re at work and having a polite conversation with a customer, but since then, it’s been pretty stuck in my head.

Bake with me: Chocolate orange cookies

Baking honestly soothes my soul a little bit. Sometimes when things get too much and I can feel myself getting all worked up, I get myself out of bed early in the morning, play some of my favourite music and bake. This time I decided to bake some chocolate orange cookies, because I was feeling autumnal and cosy and in the need of some serious chocolate.

Everybody’s Free (To Wear Sunscreen)

Music is a powerful little creation. It can make us happy and it can make us sad, it can heal us and break us. Sometimes you can’t help but move to the beat, tap your foot, nod your head or do a little jig in your kitchen. Powerful lyrics can change your perception, they can help you see things more clearly, they can comfort us, sometimes we relate to them so deeply it feels like they were written just for us and when they really hit home, they can inspire. Baz Luhrmann’s “Everybody’s free (to wear sunscreen)” is a song that has done just that to me.

August faves & feelings

August seemed to drag on for aages, it’s been a tough old month. Sitting down to write this recap half of me didn’t want to reflect back but as I thought about it, there have been some bright shining moments in this month. Times with friends and family that have been really lovely and positive that I want to focus on and as a bonus, there has actually been some stand out things I’ve been using. So here is my August faves, feelings and recap.